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Name: Remo
Country: United States
State: Michigan
Gender: Male
Interests: I often feel divided among many loves, and thus I have not fully given myself to any one thing. Those things which I wish I could enjoy more often are found below:
- Computer anything (that's the techincal term)
- Spanish (language and culture of Central America)
- Music (singing, playing, listening, directing, maybe even composing on a small scale, like piano+computer=digitally composed music)
- Youth Ministry (seminary is in my future)
- Bible Study (what?? someone can love this? Yes, I do)
- Writing (songs, poems, stories, perhaps articles)
- Reading! (I want to read, anything, I just want to read; I'm so bad at reading, I just need some practice).
Things I've tried only briefly:
- Fencing (you know, sword play)
- Eating sushi (surprisingly awesome)
- Writing with my left hand (not natural for me)
- Sign Language (took two semesters of it, love it)
- Sailing (you know, flying in water)
- Ultimate Frisbee (it IS a sport)
- Hanging with politicians to find out what's
Expertise: In the past, you find me doing a little of everything. I've tried every activity, food, music I could get my hands on. Enough dividing of myself. For a while, I want to try pursuing some of these loves deeply.
Future, you will find me diving into these arenas:
1. the Bible, reading, imagining, studying, discussing with well-studied people, wondering with friends, trying to figure out WHY IN THE WORLD God would be like He is.
2. People, working on communicating regularly with friends, pursuing intentional relationships with a few, caring about a lot, and not deceiving myself into trying to with EVERYONE (a mistake I've grown up making).
3. Computers, fixing, programming, networking, security, web paging, anything that might help friends or bring money.
4. Music, singing, playing (piano, guitar, other), improvising, writing, dancing (a necessary addition to music).
Occupation: Servant
Industry: the Church
Message: message me
Member Since:
11/24/2003
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| If you're wondering why I haven't posted in so long, then - you must not know me very well (because old patterns break hard, but God's on through with me yet!)
- and I have created a new blog, slightly more conveniently located within my Google account (which is, by the way, taking over the world--Google, not my account)
Find my new blog at: the-new-day.blogspot.com This means I will probably not post here anymore. Sad, it was a nice blog, and I spent so much time remodeling it that one night. Alas, all good things... | | |
| Worst Possible Start......to a really good dayWoke up early this morning so I could get to work early. Two reasons for this:- I was late yesterday, and have been late a fair bit (though I've recently improved a lot)
- Today was my "90 Review" with my manager, to discuss my strengths and weaknesses, etc. Or, in my terms, "to see if they want to keep me".
So I awoke to my alarm at 6:15am, on schedule to arrive at work a full half hour early. Everything was going great until I saw my hand reach up, turn off the alarm, reset it for 15 minutes later, at which point I lost consciousness again. But the expected did not occur. My alarm failed me this morning and did not sound after 15 minutes. Rather, it silently watched me sleeping until I awoke at 8:20am, with just enough time to yell from my exasperation, throw myself into the shower, into work clothes, up the stairs, into the car, and towards Calvin and arrive 5 minutes late for my 90 day review. That wouldn't be so bad, except that work starts at 8am, not 9am. Of all the days... So, did they fire me? No, not yet, anyway. Rescheduled the review for tomorrow at 9am, and my manager showed her usual kindness in the office today. No spiteful "I thought we talked about this" comments, not even a hint. Just mercy. Will that mercy carry over into our meeting tomorrow? I suspect that no matter what comes of that meeting, this truth from chapel today holds forever: Romans 8:38-39For I am convinced that neither death nor life, neither angels nor demons, neither the present nor the future, nor any powers, neither
height nor depth, nor anything else in all creation, will be able to
separate us from the love of God that is in Christ Jesus our Lord. | | |
| Expectations......a think of the pastJust when you think you have Him figured out, God pulls a fast one on you. "Well, here comes a weekend with my Jr. High small group. It'll be fun, but I'm sure I won't get any sleep, and I'll probably be exhausted by the end. In fact, I probably won't go on the Jr. High winter retreat next weekend because I'll be so wiped." Yeah, sorry to disappoint you, Remy, not gonna happen your way.I got more sleep than usual, more exercise than usual (snowboarding for the first time), and had so many cool interactions with my guys. I even had a moment where I felt absolutely on the same page with God. Yeah, doesn't happen very often. You know, where the Holy Spirit sort of nudges you to care about someone's need, in a similar way to an all-knowledgeable-mom, except with God's perfect timing. Hard to explain, but it was awesome, just another reason to praise God a whole lot. Other awesome things: - riding a huge chairlift with a 7 year old boy I didn't know
- escaping down the big scary hill, then agreeing go back up the big scary hill and collect all the lanterns (which have gone out), and eating my fear alive (instead of vice versa)
- waking up to a quiet house not to an alarm, but rather the sun
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| Buying the Truth......you must count the costAn amazing thing I've been learning recently: Life is Deep. Yes, I've been on time to work for 90% of January (which, if you know me, is clear evidence of a powerful God in my life). And I didn't change simply by "trying harder". Oh, I tried, for years, and with much pain and embarassment, but to no success. "So what made the change?" you ask. I will tell you."The issue is never the issue"Okay, I've always known that life is deep. But I was missing the tools that could take me there, to the deep place, and explain to me what I would find there. What good is a buried treasure if you haven't a shovel? September 2006, God gave me a shovel. It came through a small group which is studying one of many wonderful digging tools that follows the trail of "why"s until it begins to unearth your heart. Fascinating, life changing. I can't wait to share it with you, right after I return from a weekend retreat with this very small group. Blessings, specifically the blessings of God in Christ, be with you all.
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| The Challenge......day 1The stage has been set. The challenge has been made. I've won one day. Can I do it two?
Do I have what it takes?
My worst fears grow wings,
become my highest dreams;
Carry me to mountain peaks,
to streaks of clouded vision
and confusion,
no clue where I am
At first I was soaring,
swirling, sheering, spinning,
sailing ever upward
until my dreams were blinded by
the very thing I sought:
the heights.
So here I stand, barely
able to stand the wind and rain
of shame, of almost knowing
what it takes to play this game,
to earn my new name,
to step out for the sake of falling home. | | |
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